Saturday Thoughts..

Last night I had a few minutes to catch up on some blogs and I had a chance to hop over to Pete's blog.  Pete did a sermon series over a year ago titled Plan B, and he also has taken that sermon and wrote a book which will be released early in the spring.   On his blog is the 4 min video promo for his book.   Its crazy how powerful some little 4 min video can be.  The basic premise of Pete's book is when our life.. our plan doesn't go as expected.. and then we are left with a different plan.  Plan B. 

Its exactly where we (I) am at right now.  We are in our Plan B.   On one hand we are so excited for this change, but in a instant we are minded of why we are in this stage.  I have been thinking a lot about Gavin this week...and even today.    I went to the Philly Car Show with a few friends and had a good time.  I enjoy looking at cars and reading the stats of MPG's.. 0-60 in how many seconds..  But at one point I was standing looking around I noticed how many dad's brought their son's to the car show.  I am not a sports person that much.. so if it was a sporting event.. it might not have noticed it so much.  But this is something that I am interested in and it could have been something I could have done with Gavin.  It just makes me miss him...and interacting with him. 

But you know when I think of stuff like that I think about it in the mindset that Gavin would be a "healthy" normal kid, however in all reality it wouldn't have been like that.  I have to remind myself that he was such a sick little boy, and its hard to remember that because I just to be reminded of the good times.   But by the end of the Gavi's life.. there really were not any good times.  

ugh...

All this to say I missed him a lot this week.  I've had all this stuff just running through my head and I have been wanting to just get it out hoping that it will help.   

Oh Gavin.. I love you.