06 November, 2009

Dear Gavin,

You are my beautiful little boy. For 3 years we have been by your side day in and day out watching you literally fight for you life. It is hard for me to swallow that today will be your last day fighting. I can't even put into words how much joy you have brought into our lives.

But today we are sending you home, and one day soon we will see you again completely whole.

I love you... my baby boy


Daddy

53 comments:

Anonymous said...

I've been following your blog for quite awhile and can't fathom your journey. Am praying for you and your family to be overwhelmed by God's peace and mercy as you walk through this valley.

Anonymous said...

i'm so sorry to hear about gavin i hope he is in peace and may god be with you all

Mom of 3 and bride-to-be! said...

This is my wife's blog, but I wanted to leave my own personal message to you.
As a father (we have 4 boys) I cannot understand your strength. You are, by far, a better man than I. Your courage is examplerary.

God Bless you, my dear brother. My you feel God's arms wrapped around you today, until the day you are with Gavin again.

Giovanni

Kate said...

I am praying so hard for you and your wife today. Gavin will be in the arms of Jesus, healthy and whole.

You have loved him well.

Love,
Kate

Beckypdj said...

Love and prayers for your family

Sandy said...

Adam -- May Jesus give you strength and love. Know that Gavin loved you and had the best parents and sister at his side. You will continue to be in my prayers.

kate. said...

Dear Adam,
I can't imagine what you must be going through right now. Losing your only has to be unimaginable. I am just so sorry this has to happen. Even though it's true that Gavin will be at peace - not in pain - it's still just not fair. I am just so sorry.
I am ashamed at myself for not writing to you before this. It's just one of those things - the Mom always gets more attention. It happens in my house, too. I hope you know that every note written on Karen's blog is meant for you, too. I hope you know how many people pray for YOU. I hope you know that I often wonder how YOU are holding up. I hope you know.
Although Ed and I don't know what it must be like to know you'll lose a child...we do know this. We know that we have learned a lot from your family. We've learned grace. We've learned courage. We've learned how to find strength when we thought we had none. We've learned how to live life in spite of obstacles. We are better parents because of you and Karen. Your example through all of your struggles has been profound.
As you say goodbye to Gavin, we wish you the strength that you didn't know you had. And we hope you remember that there are so many people that care about you. You are a great Daddy. This I know for sure. You'll get through this. I promise.
With our deepest sympathy,
kate and ed leong.

Kait said...

I cannot imagine your pain, but my heart goes out to you and your family. May the strength and peace of Jesus find you and sustain you... my deepest sympathies Adam.

Brad Ruggles said...

I'm praying for your family and precious little Gavin with tears in my eyes as I write this.

Our prayer is that the God of all comfort will comfort your hears and give little Gavin peace during this time.

We love you guys and will be fervently praying for you all day.

Jake said...

Praying for you and your family.. that peace and comfort will flood your entire beings. PEACE and COMFORT that can only come from God in the name of Jesus.

Heather said...

You are simply an amazing daddy who has done a simply amazing job.

Sending you love and prayers for this day and these moments, with your beautiful boy.

Shane Heintz said...

Adam,

From a Daddy who knows exactly what you have gone through each and everyday... I also know what this day feels like as well. Parts of you feel numb, your mind blank, other things may feel like a relief, as you know your baby boy will soon be pain free. Its a day you never should have to face as a Daddy!

I know all the things you are feeling, and from a Daddy who lost his angel Ally a year ago, I want you to know I am here for you whenever you need a friend. The pain and loss of losing a child will never go away. No parent deserves to face such a burden in life. I wish I could do things to save you more time with Gavin! Kiss him, love him, whisper everything you can think of in his ears today.

I asked my baby girl this morning to please be with Gavin today at duPont, to greet him with loving and open arms.

I pray GOD graces you today with peace and love.

BartolucciMR1 said...

You are an amazing father, reflecting God's unconditional love for his son. I am speechless at your family's strength and courage. I can only aspire to have the love your family has. Always praying...

Miranda

Rachel said...

Praying for peace for Gavin and your Family. Please know that all of you are surronded by many prayers and love today and the days to come.

The Avilas said...

My heart breaks for u and your family. Please know we are praying for u on this day and the difficult ones that follow.

Jenn

Anonymous said...

Adam,
I know that this is a difficult time for you, Ms. Karen and the family but no that we cared very much for you all. You all were family to us when you came to A.I. I have watched Gavin grow into this bright,sweet, pleasant little boy. He is Maddie's precious brother and you and Karen's sweet boy. It was very difficult for me to say goodbye to such a precious Gavin because I saw how he grew and changed in his 3 years of life but I know that he will be in a better place. You are all in my prayers and I want to THANK YOU for letting me help take care of Gavin.
You always had a smile on your face everyday when you walked through that door with Maddie by your side and I thank you for holding it all together for not only yourself but your family.
Ms. Karen I know it is difficult for you to see your child suffer day to day and not be able to help in any way but you have been strong and holding it together so you keep on being strong and know that Gavin will be in a better place with no more pain and suffering. Someday we will all see his beautiful smile and face.

Hall Family in MD said...

Adam - I have been reading your wife's and Gavin's blog for a while now and want you to know that the Hall family in MD is praying for you and your family. I can not imagine what you as a father are going through right now, but know that your Heavenly Father is weeping with you and waiting to welcome sweet Gavin Home, completely healed and whole. And it saddens me to know that Gavin never made it home to the house so many people where building for your family, but you, Karen and Madison were truly his home, not some place of walls and windows. ((Hugs))

Ckinneer said...

Adam,
I have followed your wife's blog now for awhile. I have never met your family but I feel like I know you guys through the reading of your blogs. As a mother I cannot even begin to comprehend what you must be feeling today. But know that you have been a wonderful example of what it is to be a father and through that example, you have prepared your sweet baby to meet our Father face to face. I am praying for peace in your decisions and in your hearts. I know it's nearly impossible to expect that to happen today but one day...
Love,
The Kinneer's + Woodstock, GA

Jen said...

we lost our daughter to mito 6months ago on the 19th of Nov. It is so incredibly hard.. we will be praying for your family and pray for peace to cover you..

Anonymous said...

Adam,
I just left a comment on Gavin's blog for all of you. (I've decided I need to buy softer tissues.) I am sure that Gram is waiting to see Gavin & hold a wiggling little boy, just as soon as Jesus welcomes him home. I know, life doesn't seem fair and sometimes we can make no sense of it. I always know that God gives us nomore than we can handle, He may push us further than we are comfortable.
Just lean back hug your family and
rely on him. He will catch and support you in this time of need.

Love,
Evy

Sean, Chelle and Carter Cates said...

Adam,

You are an amazing father. May God comfort you today and everyday forth. Gavin will watch down on you, Karen and Madi daily with envy and glee from Heaven above. Karen likewise is the mother every child wishes to have. Both of you are courageous and Gavin's spirit will live on. Your family will always be in our family. We love you and wish we could be there to help comfort you all. We stand ready to help in any way. May God send his angels to guide your family through this crisis. We will be thinking of all you thoroughout the day and days to come.

Love,

Sean (and Chelle & Carter) Cates

P.S. We posted a picture today of Gavin, Madison and Carter on our site. We hope you don't mind.

britta said...

Adam....I am so sorry about what you are going through. You and Karen show the world so much strength through such difficult times. I put up on my blog that I am praying for you guys. What heartache...

Love you guys....


britta

tripntwinmom said...

Adam-

My thoughts and prayers are with you too as you walk through this darkness with your beautiful wife and daughter. May you see the light of the most gorgeous guardian angel shining over you for that WILL be Gavin in his PERFECT state with our Lord....Hold the ones you love near and tight for they will be help you through as will your strong faith.

Jenn in Texas

Teresa said...

Adam,

I'm so sorry it is time for you to go through this. I can't see to type anything else through the tears, but I'm praying you have a peaceful and comforting last day together.

Teresa

Melody said...

I don't even have the words to say the anguish that's in my heart, but I am so so sorry. I am praying for you guys today.

Kevin Lyons said...

Adam,

My family is praying for yours. Peace, health, and understanding.

Blessings!
Kevin Lyons

Krystena K. said...

My heart is breaking for Gavin and your family. 3 years isn't long enough. I'm so very sorry. I am at a loss for words. I don't understand it.....

Anonymous said...

Wrapping your entire family in prayer tonight.

Erin in OH.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you. I can just imagine Gavin waking up in Heaven tomorrow morning with a huge stack of pancakes loaded with syrup and butter. That beautiful smile and twinkle back in his eyes...but he's too busy to eat because he's three and has a ton of energy. God in his goodness has healed his body...My prayers that you will find comfort in that promise of healing and life everlasting...

I wish that God could somehow heal you, Karen and Madi's hearts. My prayers are with you.

Joy Rota

Chris said...

Adam, When I read your blog post today all I could do was weep. I'm so so sorry. I am praying for your family.

Chris

Misty said...

praying for you all tonight! thank you so much for sharing gavin and madi with all of us.. they both have made our lives brighter and you and karen have been TRUE inspirations..

Goodnight precious Gavin!

many prayers, thoughts and love for you all from Colorado!

misty

Misty

Anonymous said...

Hi Adam, I usually post on Karen's site. I just wanted to say, I am praying for you. Praying for all that concerns you. Gavin has been so special to me. Your family has been so special to me. I have so appreciated how your family has shared your lives with us on this website. No one can truly know how difficult this is for you, Karen and Maddie. My prayers are with you all at this time. Be blessed and be safe in Him. ~Debbie Heisey

Brook Sarver said...

We'll be praying for you guys through the night...

May God prove to be the Rock on which you can live...

We love you guys...

Terri said...

Adam, i am so sorry for this moment. Such a precious, pleasant beautiful son you are having to let go of. Praying for you, Karen & Madison. You guys have shown such incredible strength, grace & love. Thank you for sharing your lives with us. God bless & keep you!
~Terri Fantasia

Tyler's Mommy said...

keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers.

grey like snuffie said...

Rejoicing for Gavin...into the arms of Jesus...complete and whole with joy. Weeping for your family...praying His comfort, thankful He will be what you need.

jennyhope said...

my heart aches for all of you! praying

brandiandboys said...

i'm broken hearted for you, karen and madison. we're praying for you all.

lizsarno said...

I am truly sorry for your loss. Praying for your family in the days to come.

Rebecca said...

Praying for your family, I read about Gavin daily and pray for you all. Gavin is getting his new Home..and it won't compare to anything down here. You all our inspirations to everyone who is a parent. God wrap His arms around you.

CJ Mills said...

Bro - here are some comments people have left on my facebook page after posting links to your sites...

My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family today. Love you guys.
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Deb Swihart - CJ, I just read their blog. Heavenly Father, please hold this family tight in your arms and give them the peace that can only come from you.

Lauren Kerr Capps - Aw CJ, I'm sooo sorry to hear this. I read his blog quite a while ago when you posted something about him, and I'm so sad to hear that Gavin hasn't been able to beat this. My prayers are with the family...


Ellen Hackett - Thank you for sharing. Prayers are with this family!


Lynsey Slagle - Thanks for posting the link. We'll be praying for them tonight and in the days to come.


Jessica Dierckman - CJ, I read a lot of the family's posts and I can't stop crying- they have had such a tremendous emotional rollercoaster ride! I plan on working as a NICU nurse and I believe I can handle it, but situations like Gavin's make me question whether or not I have the strength. He is such a beautiful boy and I feel so bad for him and his family. I can't even imagine the pain that Gavin has experienced in his short life but I must remember that God has his way of protecting his little angels from so much pain. Please let Gavin and his family know that I am praying for them!!!!!!!!!!!!

Valerie Powers - My heart aches for you and your friends. May the peace of God surround all of you. We will pray continually!

stacy gerlach said...

WE've been praying for all of you
As we continue to lift you all up we pray Gavin will be with Jesus and not suffering anymore. We all will be with him so soon. Praying for your heart as it breaks for your baby.....
Prayers & Hugs!!!

Jimmy DeWan said...

praying for you guys.

Candace said...

Adam,
Our thoughts and prayers are with you and you precious family. I know no words can bring peace, only GOD can give it to you. May he go in the comfort of his familie's loving arms and into THE FATHER'S. PEACE to you...

Jad said...

My heart is breaking for you right now.

God is near.

Nothing other to say than that.

Anonymous said...

Lord Jesus, Father Almighty, be with the entire Owens' family. May the Holy Spirit fill them with peace and strength. Let them feel the love and support from all of their friends around the world tonight. In your name, we pray.

Amen.

Lisa Marie said...

Adam - you are such a wonderful Daddy, and Madi and Gavin are so blessed! We are wrapping you ALL in prayer as you go through this difficult time... no words can express our sympathy. Dear Jesus, hold Gavin close in your loving arms. In Christ, the Walk family

Anonymous said...

Lifting your entire family up to Him in prayer tonight. what a sweet baby boy. what a beautiful story his life will be to tell to the world. Praying for peace tonight.
Love, Jill - Toledo, Ohio

Amy (and Matthew) said...

Adam,

Whenever I check your blogs for updates, your letter to Gavin always chokes me up. Its beautiful, but I wish you never had to write it.

There aren't many of us that can comfort you from experience, but I am thankful that God can. God knows what it is like to watch your only son suffer and die an undeserved death. He stands by you today, and in the days to come with loving compassion that knows your pain. I pray that you find comfort in his arms when you need it.

Anonymous said...

Dear Adam,
Just wanted to say that you guys have changed my life forever. your amazing family and God is going to bless you through this hard time!
With love from Bechtelsville Pa,
Heather Reinhard.
p.s. from MSF

Marty said...

Adam,

I don't know you at all, but I want to say that I'm truly sorry for your loss. As the daddy of a 2 year old boy and a 1 year old girl, my greatest fear has become anything happening to them. I am thankful however that God is in the business of putting broken hearts back together, and I praise Him that your faith can be a testament of strength to us all during this time. My family is praying for yours.

May God richly bless you with peace, healing, and His presence most of all.

Marty

Jenni Clayville said...

no words. just mourning with you. i'm SO sorry!

Brenda said...

Adam,
Our love and prayers to you, Karen, and Maddy. No words can minimize your pain, but know Gavin is in heaven today running around with Jesus - free, healed, and at peace.

Love, The Novaks