Favorite..

I can't even tell you the hundreds of cars that I saw at the Car Show. But.. out of all the cars/trucks/suv's I saw.. the Jeep Wrangler always makes me happy. These are just the coolest/funn-est (is that even a word) SUV's around. In my mind it just ooozes "cool". If I had money to just drop on a new Wrangler I would. It would just be my summer/sunny day car, and on other days I would probably drive a Volvo XC90 (hey a boy can dream can't he).


But in the mean time I will continue to drive my AWSOME '01 Taurus with 160K.


So my question to you is.. what is your favorite car/truck/suv you would buy if you had a bajillon dollars just lying around!??!?!?

Saturday Thoughts..

Last night I had a few minutes to catch up on some blogs and I had a chance to hop over to Pete's blog.  Pete did a sermon series over a year ago titled Plan B, and he also has taken that sermon and wrote a book which will be released early in the spring.   On his blog is the 4 min video promo for his book.   Its crazy how powerful some little 4 min video can be.  The basic premise of Pete's book is when our life.. our plan doesn't go as expected.. and then we are left with a different plan.  Plan B. 

Its exactly where we (I) am at right now.  We are in our Plan B.   On one hand we are so excited for this change, but in a instant we are minded of why we are in this stage.  I have been thinking a lot about Gavin this week...and even today.    I went to the Philly Car Show with a few friends and had a good time.  I enjoy looking at cars and reading the stats of MPG's.. 0-60 in how many seconds..  But at one point I was standing looking around I noticed how many dad's brought their son's to the car show.  I am not a sports person that much.. so if it was a sporting event.. it might not have noticed it so much.  But this is something that I am interested in and it could have been something I could have done with Gavin.  It just makes me miss him...and interacting with him. 

But you know when I think of stuff like that I think about it in the mindset that Gavin would be a "healthy" normal kid, however in all reality it wouldn't have been like that.  I have to remind myself that he was such a sick little boy, and its hard to remember that because I just to be reminded of the good times.   But by the end of the Gavi's life.. there really were not any good times.  

ugh...

All this to say I missed him a lot this week.  I've had all this stuff just running through my head and I have been wanting to just get it out hoping that it will help.   

Oh Gavin.. I love you.

Something Funny..

I tweeted about this commercial during the Colts Game yesterday.. Holy crap.. this has got to be the first funny commercial I have seen so far in 2010.  HYSTERICAL Wow.. and it was from Walmart non the less.. good stuff!!

Enjoy!

Searching.. Part 1

I am probably about half way through the book and it really has got me thinking about the way I view God... and my relationship with Him. So many of us use the Bible like its a formula to figure out our life. If we just do steps A, B, and C we will have a good life with God. He will be pleased with us and things will be alright. Now we may not mentally have that thought process, but lets be honest.. we do that.... I DO that. My eyes are opening to my behavior that it really isn’t about formulas.. or steps.. but the Bible is a relational book. Real stories about real people and their relationship with God. I just read chapter 5 and it gave me a whole new perspective of the life Adam and Eve had in the Garden before the fall. About the relationship they had with God. It was so beautiful. I am learning to start reading the Bible with out the "filters" that I put on to quickly try and see what the scripture is saying then see how it can help me in my time of need right now. Ugh even typing that last sentence made me cringe.. because I totally do that..more often then I would like to admit.


Don't misunderstand me. I believe the Bible is a teaching tool...of course it is. But if I stop looking at it only in that light and start looking at it as relational book to see how these men and women loved Him and interacted with Him. I don't know if I am making much sense.. but this is something that really hit me today...like duh.. God wants to have a relationship with me.. like He did with Adam and Eve. I mean I've "known" that in the past but to actually see how I've viewed the Bible in the past as just a formula was huge to me.


I am excited to keep reading on to see what other things get me thinking. You ever get the feeling that something big is gonna happen? I dunno why.. but in my heart I got that feeling today. I don't know if its gonna be a spiritual thing or not.. but I feel like God is wanting me to get ready.... and I think I am starting to get there.

Before and After....

Ok.. So it's taken a little longer than I wanted to get before and after pics up of the house.  So I apologize to the one person  everyone who has been asking for them.   It is really amazing what can happen when a community rallies together to help out a family.  Our hearts are forever grateful for each and every person who worked on this house to make it a reality for us.

So without further ado..   Here we go..

Created with flickr shildshow.

6 years..

Wow.. 6 years.  Even as I type that its hard to believe.  It seems just like yesterday I watched you walked down that isle with tears in my eyes.  I can't believe this beautiful woman has put up with me for that long.  

Karen I love you.   More than words will ever be able to describe.  You have helped me become a better man.. a better husband..and a better father.   I know this past year has been one of the hardest that we had to face, but knowing that you were there by my side was one of the most comforting things.  I am so excited to see what this year has for the both of us.  I can't wait to see what God has in store for our lives. 

Karen,  Happy Anniversary.....I love you.

Trying to Post..

That's what I have been trying to do all this week... and when I've tried to do it I either don't have the words or my "idea" that I thought was so great turned out to be pretty lame... it was like I was trying to hard.  Which I is true.. I was trying to force myself to be cool..interesting.. generate some buzz around this here blog...which equals L A M E.  The thing that annoys me the most is that I'm still trying to be something other than what I am.  I try to put on this personality of that I am way cooler than what I think I am.  

You know I have been reading through Proverbs this month with Pete and his church, and that book is just so practical about how are to live our daily lives.  I have The Message and it just smacks you in the face.  Which is good because I need to get smacked around sometimes by the word.. it keeps my attention.  But the thing with Proverbs is it constantly reminds me how we/I need Him everyday.  To not even for a second think that we can do this thing called life on our own.   I was driving home from picking up some hoagies for dinner last night and I was listening to Rita Springer.  The song Mansion came on and the words that start this song really moved me.

"I am thirtsty I am needy I am wanting more more of you.. I am thristy I am needy I am wanting more more of you."  

Those words were exactly what my soul is crying out for.  This is where I am at.   

I am thirsty.  

I am needy.  

I am wanting more of Him.  

Lord be the one to quench my thrist.  Be the one to fill my life with your presence.  Because I don't want to think that I can do this on my own.  It scares me to think of not having your presence in my life.  

Whatever those things are.  You know them.  Everyone in the blogsphere is blogging about them.  All the commercials on TV now are about getting fit, joining gyms, new Wii games about fitness.   Financial commercials about getting your money straight.  They are all out there..   This post isnt so much about resolutions for me.. its more about "what the heck am I doing this year". 

The past 3 years were lived in such a chaotic state that we didnt really do much besides live our lives day to day.  Sometimes only hour by hour.  So its strange now to actually be able to feel like to have time to be able to plan things.. to put things on the calendar and know they will most likely happen.

So that leaves me again... "what the heck am I doing this year".  This is the first year that I can do something.. maybe find a new hobby, volunteer work, I dunno.  But that's the thing.. I dunno.   I used to run back in the day before kids.. and Karen and I used to do it together so I think I am gonna try and get back into that.  We were talking and I think that it would be something good.. It some attainable goals.  Running some races.. then working up for some bigger runs.  10K's, and maybe a half marathon.   I am excited to start reading more.  I ordered Searching for God Knows What by Donald Miller.   Which looks like it should be a good read. 

So there we are.. I think I may have a good start of what I may enjoy.. Now I just need to DO IT... DO IT... DO IT.   Enough talking.. and just start it.

So what the heck are you doing this year?

SNL..

Sometimes the skits on SNL kill me. They are the funniest when the actors have a hard time keeping themselves in character.   Enjoy this lovely Holiday song..